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I conjure all the good luck nature has to offer. Sure there may be obstructions along the way, but remember that after every night, there's always a new day.

Displaced

All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another.

~Anatole France

I couldn't forget the day I found it.

Among the others, it shone the brightest.

I nurtured it, nourished it.

In return, it gave me happiness well beyond imagination.

But somehow, it had grown formidable.

It began consuming what was supposed to be mine alone.

The day came when I could no longer comprehend it,

I was scared, confused.

I still gave my everything, hence I grew weaker.

And all I could recognize was its side facing me.

In submission, I just let it be.

And prayed it would be its turn to take good care of me.

September 2, 2008

2:47 PM

Fam Mam

Lullaby

Hush little one, it’s time to rest,

I know you had such a long day.

The things that had hurt us both,

Let’s put them aside, pray they’d be gone soon.

I’m here for you, stop crying,

We’re both scared but at least we’ve got each other.

I would protect you in my embrace,

In time, everything will be alright.

Don’t worry if you had somehow caused me pain,

Those trials had all but made me stronger.

I’m awed by the fact that you’re still here with me,

Facing the world with bravery.

I too am deeply sorry,

For giving you a dose of misery.

I was blinded by my fears,

I didn’t see that you were just fighting for me.

Let’s now close our eyes and dream of a brighter tomorrow,

For I long to see that smile on your lips.

Here, take my hand and have a little faith,

Because when you wake up tomorrow, I’d still be here.

April 24, 2008

4:52pm

Fam Mam

Come Fly With Me

Come fly with me,
to the highest mountain,
where the snow covers the dirt,
where we can touch the clouds,
where everything looks small,
so you can see the boundary of my affection.

Come fly with me,
to the widest ocean,
where the water looks blue and pure,
where the dolphins break the surface,
where we can ride the waves,
so you can discern the depth of my love.

Come fly with me,
to the farthest land,
where it is green and serene,
where the creatures are roaming freely,
where we can gaze upon the sky,
so you can look at the dreams I made for us.

Come fly with me,
to the world as I see it,
where the field is vibrant and untainted,
where the water runs clear and endless,
where all beings are beaming with life,
so it can all be real.

October 2, 2007

Fam Mam

In Memoriam

I must grieve,
for the good ol' days gone by,
where a dime is worth a dime,
and a smile begets a smile...

I shall sing,
in melancholious embrace,
for the glory of the past,
that refuses to linger...

I will bask myself,
in all those miracles,
still hoping that yet someday,
it will come to life again... 



September 15, 2007
Fam Mam

How Things Can Change

Yes, you can have a goodnight kiss. Not everyone wants you only for what you can offer sexually. Not everyone will only behave intimately towards you when you are five minutes from having sex. Someone very soon will care about you in a way that is distinct from their own needs and will want to show you that when they are given the chance. You will feel loved and happy and your desire for this is not irrational.

You can have a romance on your own terms. Maybe this means you want to spend more time sleeping in your own bed or less time having unfulfilling anal sex. Maybe you’d like to go out in public more often or maybe you’d like to go camping or talk about poetry or not watch a sports game. You can have that. Someone will be interested in what you care about just because they care about and are interested in you.

Your relationship can be recognized. Someone will fall in love with you who lets his friends and family know. Who introduces you to them and wants them to like you because they like you. Who won’t call you “my friend” in public and who will write on your Facebook wall and who will pose for pictures with you without cringing or making excuses.

You can communicate without fighting. One of the most important lessons a person can and (hopefully) will learn after their first relationship is that drama doesn’t equal intimacy. Just because you are having frequent, vulnerable, complicated conversations it doesn’t mean your relationship is deep or meaningful. It means you’re both insecure and hurt and it’s damaged beyond repair, probably. You will find someone who likes to talk to you because they think you are funny and interesting and they want your perspective, not to punish or check up on you.

You can feel happy and excited when you are communicated with. On a related note, you need to know that you can get to a place where you feel elated and not anxious when someone communicates with you. Your phone will buzz and you will feel affectionate and not sick to your stomach.

You can expect someone to care about you as an equal. This involves all levels of reciprocity in a relationship, not the least of which regards your sexual needs. You deserve to be able to clearly communicate what you want and you deserve to have those wants understood and appreciated. You are not a possession or a servant.

You can stop lying to your friends. You will feel infinitely better when you can stop telling your friends that this person and/or your relationship with them is perfect, happy, healthy, normal, etc. Someday you will find a person whose actions speak for themselves and you won’t have to bullsh-t anybody.

How Things Can Change 

by Johanna de Silentio, Mar 14 2012

from Thought Catalog