Last Grind

Lost between the crevices,

are dusts of what have been.

Scampering, trying to hang-on,

palms tensed, brows dripping sweat.

The futility of it all is pitiful,

the innocence has persevered cluelessly,

trudged unknowingly, lost even before it began,

crumbling pillars of sleight.

Armed with shattered pieces,

it was all for naught.

Bleak realization has come,

still desperately clinging, enduring.

For life is such-- everything eventually succumbs,

time is both an affliction and a relief,

possessing and then liberating,

as she slowly fades away.

Rob LP

10/22

4:37 PM

I Love You More =)

Note: This is in response to I Love You =)

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I love you more than the break of morning,
where the sun casts its warm comforting glow,
where hope sprouts anew,
and sensibility restored.

I love you more than the exhilaration,
of doing something new,
where the novelty of it all,
fills your senses, prods your faculties.

I love you more than the peace and quiet,
bursts of tranquilness ever so elusive,
even the raging storms pale in comparison,
to the intensity of my affection for you.

I love you more than our thousand days,
brimming with fervor unimaginable,
dappled with shadows of all strokes here and there,
tears don't really matter when all that's me is you. 

09/14/2016
10:56 AM
PBC

DENOUEMENT

Image from Narcodigitalhedonism

Naked, shivering, cold

thread slowly

thins sheets of ice are beneath me.

You stumbled

once or twice don't seem enough.

Lit a cigarette

smoke billows up to the sky,

follow your gaze to the stars,

what's there in the pale moonlight,

what's there on the other side?

Glint of a sharp knife's steel

hold it in your hand so welcoming,

borrow it's thoughts you'd be free,

of the place you once belonged,

bid farewell

it all ends here.

11/12 - 8:17am

Batcave

ITERATION

Image from SpiritualHealingSource.com

Straddle the passion,

Eyes wide open,

Screaming in silence.

Unsee,

unsee,

unsee.

Release that laughter,

So long unheard,

Kept in the depths.

Shush,

shush,

shush.

Out of the void,

But only temporary,

Go be wild and free.

Stop,

stop,

stop.

Only this is,

Ever so fleeting,

A taste of what's not.

Yield,

yield,

yield.

11/11/2016

9:45PM

CBTL Venice Piazza

Post Lamentation

Image from Ghost in the Machine, Jacob Sutton

I've come undone,
swept by the tidal waves
I've been devoured.


My synapses pulsing wildly,
furious at the blatant consciousness
in the cross aftermath.


I've struggled to retaliate,
dumb stricken by the desolation,
and yet I've held back.


Far ahead in the distance,
there's a flicker of light,
I ran after.


Nowhere to go, nowhere to be,
but facing a glint of hope,
I've never looked back.


April 16, 2012
7:15 PM

Lullaby

Hush little one, it’s time to rest,

I know you had such a long day.

The things that had hurt us both,

Let’s put them aside, pray they’d be gone soon.

I’m here for you, stop crying,

We’re both scared but at least we’ve got each other.

I would protect you in my embrace,

In time, everything will be alright.

Don’t worry if you had somehow caused me pain,

Those trials had all but made me stronger.

I’m awed by the fact that you’re still here with me,

Facing the world with bravery.

I too am deeply sorry,

For giving you a dose of misery.

I was blinded by my fears,

I didn’t see that you were just fighting for me.

Let’s now close our eyes and dream of a brighter tomorrow,

For I long to see that smile on your lips.

Here, take my hand and have a little faith,

Because when you wake up tomorrow, I’d still be here.

April 24, 2008

4:52pm

Fam Mam

I Love You by Choc

I LOVE YOU =)

 

I love you

more than the sea loves its shore,

even stronger than the falls 

when in great depth it pours.

I wanna hold you close 

and let you feel that I care,

I won't let tears leave your eyes 

with the love I'd gratefully share...

I could imagine the sound of your kiss,

it can silence everything,

it could sweeten a sweet moment

and fill it with great bliss..

Your soft eyes of honesty,

their innocence have smitten me,

it has made life worth living,

and all truth worth telling.

You smile with great sincerity

and I can't help but to fall.

I'd never thought there'll be someone

who will conquer my heart, who will conquer my all.

April 2002

Choc

Optimistically Struggling

Steep as it is,
you shouldn't miss.
Each step counts,
to make the rounds.
Stagger and fall,
hold tightly on the wall.
Pain is good,
learn from it you should.
Do not rush,
or else you'll crash.
Everything is important,
be not ignorant.
Things have a purpose,
God has given you the proper dose.
Just be patient,
things will be lenient.
Take your time,
it will be fine.
Don't worry a lot,
enjoy it out.
And before you know it,
you're done and complete. 



October 8, 2007
Fam Mam

The Irony of Life

Be apathetic in order to understand,
struggle to make up a lie to see the truth,
try being numb so you can finally feel,
keep on walking so as not to get tired,
look around to make yourself blind,
close your eyes and see what's in store.


...For life continues to revolve even when you stop,
and the world halts just when you wanted to ride. 



October 4, 2007
Fam Mam

Come Fly With Me

Come fly with me,
to the highest mountain,
where the snow covers the dirt,
where we can touch the clouds,
where everything looks small,
so you can see the boundary of my affection.

Come fly with me,
to the widest ocean,
where the water looks blue and pure,
where the dolphins break the surface,
where we can ride the waves,
so you can discern the depth of my love.

Come fly with me,
to the farthest land,
where it is green and serene,
where the creatures are roaming freely,
where we can gaze upon the sky,
so you can look at the dreams I made for us.

Come fly with me,
to the world as I see it,
where the field is vibrant and untainted,
where the water runs clear and endless,
where all beings are beaming with life,
so it can all be real.

October 2, 2007

Fam Mam

Dysphoria

The sea is blood creeping on my toes,
tears of pain washing me in agony.
The waves, so huge and strong,
fueling my incessant fear.

The sands beneath my feet are tiny shards of glass,

seeping through my veins, oh it really hurts.

The water, ragingly washing my feet is a trap,

bringing me progressive atrophy.

The wind is wailing, bellowing in my ears,

so loud that I wish to be deaf.

The sky -- a dark blanket, thick and intimidating

warning me of the brewing storm.

The moonlight is as hazy as the fog,

engulfing me as if it owns me.

In each step, gravity is pulling me closer,

the longer I stay, the harder it is to leave...

I don't belong here,

this isn't supposed to be my destination...

I may have gone astray,

how I reached this place, I don't know...

I am scared, perturbed and distressed,

still, it just happened so here I go.

But as spring ends into fall like nature dictates,

so shall this delusion.

I may have to stay longer, perhaps close to infinity,

that will drain my connection away.

Though I believe beyond the clouds,

there's a sun dozing temporarily.

So absorbed in its peaceful slumbering,

telling me to rest along.

I am so tired that I closed my eyes,

and just waited for the approaching redemption.

September 28, 2007

Fam Mam

Of Love and Botchok =p

Botchok and I; Bolinao, Pangasinan 2011

For what is thy balm that holds you near?

When nature sparks, nothing seems to gleam.

Thee solely conjure the magnificent flight,

That compels others to go into plight.

For what may seem an endless delight,

Imperturbable by anything, whatever they might.

Bound for happiness but sprinkled with sorrow,

This pursuit that will take us to ‘morrow.

September 27, 2007

Fam Mam

10 AM Madness

The time of haunting has arrived,
ghouls and ghosts are stirred to leak out.
Imagery one wouldn't dream of having,
appearing in perpetual repetition.

Oh how I abhor this moment!
No impediment in recognizing it.
It manifests inevitably,
and yet I dream for it to evanesce.

Sometimes I'm confused with the definition of reality,
if there's such a thing, why is there oblivion?
Two faces of the coin that continues to thrive,
constant epithets in defining life.

I'm irrational I suppose,
for identifying it with intense delight.
Or is it the other way around?
For existence only makes sense when the unseen seems crucial.

Note: I wrote this during my 10 am vacant class. My mind is a total mess, so please excuse the absurdity of the theme. =p 



September 20, 2007
Fam Mam

Just Leave Me Alone

Waking up with a nightmare is such a bad start to your day,

washing it off won't help at all.

Getting through your destination is another story.

You're lucky if you arrive there whole.

You try to concentrate on sensible things but it seems futile,

the unfortunate events come flashing back into your mind.

You attempt to distract yourself with everything that seems considerable,

as expected, it didn't work... and you bet that nothing ever will...

Over and over it stalks your already chaotic mind,

What the hell shall you do?

You already tried everything, you've exhausted all your energies,

still, it clings on to you like it's already a part of you...

When will this ever end?

You're afraid of going to sleep tonight

as sure as the moon will rise, you're about to relive it again..

and the same thing will happen over and over...

You're very helpless, there's nothing you can do,

guess you should just wait for it to get tired of you.

But when? Until it has shattered every inch of you?

And you wake up one day not knowing "you"?

September 17, 2007

11:04am

Fam Mam

Nightfall

To the one for me, can you still hear me?
I've been craving for your voice that fills my emptiness...
If day couldn't do it, will the night compensate?
Waitin' and waitin', my eyes almost droppin...

Just before I submit myself to sleep,
I whispered my longings to the warm night air,
not because it serves as everybody's invisible ear,
but in the hope that my words reach you in your sleep... 



September 15, 2007
Fam Mam

In Memoriam

I must grieve,
for the good ol' days gone by,
where a dime is worth a dime,
and a smile begets a smile...

I shall sing,
in melancholious embrace,
for the glory of the past,
that refuses to linger...

I will bask myself,
in all those miracles,
still hoping that yet someday,
it will come to life again... 



September 15, 2007
Fam Mam